Steadman Family

Well, we weathered yet another horrid anniversary this past weekend. I can’t believe that it’s been two years since Ben’s passing. It still feels like it all just happened. Some days I can’t believe that it actually has happened, and I wonder where Ben is. I suppose the waves of pain come a little less often, but when they hit, they hit as hard as ever. What’s funny is that it’s the days and weeks leading up to THE DAY that are actually the hardest. I seem to be completely unable to focus on anything, and no matter what, nothing seems to feel right. Then the day comes and it’s like any other day. You still have to feed yourself and the kids. You still have to get everybody dressed. You STILL have to make it through this day like you do every other day. The wheel never stops turning.

Anyway, the girls continue to bring us joy and healing. Madie is continuing to do well in school and as a big sister. She just recently took her first skiing lesson and had a blast. We may have created a monster though since she’s now begging to go again ASAP! Lily is running full hilt into being a quick and overly curious toddler. Some days it’s a struggle just to keep up, and it will only get worse as my waistline expands and baby boy Steadman gets bigger. She feels my heart with pure love and joy and I can only smile even during her worst tantrum.

Dean’s job hunt has finally ended and he began his new job this week. I am so very excited for him in this new journey. He is in over his head, which is how he excels and gains the most confidence and sense of success. I have no doubts that this is a huge step in the right direction for him. All the traveling will be a bummer but is a necessity.

The baby and I are doing great. Our last check-up had him right on target for size and his heartbeat was very strong and healthy sounding. All of the ultrasound scans appeared normal and there is no question that he is a HE. I am trying to enjoy this pregnancy as much as possible, since it is likely to be out last. It’s tough because I also want it over with so I can meet the newest little man in my life.

I guess that’s enough for now, I’ll try to update more often. At least until the baby comes!

All my love to everyone!!!!

Melinda