Happy Easter My Love!
Happy Easter to my sweet sweet boy, how I miss you so. I keep waiting for time to pass so the pain of your loss will be dimmed, and yet I miss you more than ever. I’m getting better at hiding it, denying the pain. This isn’t a good thing I know, but I feel like I owe it to the girls to be a happy and loving mother. I’m sure I’m over compensating, but oh well, one day at a time I guess.
The one-year celebration went better than I had hoped for. It was so nice to have everyone there showing their support of us and their love for Ben. It was a very healing day for me. I don’t know if we’ll plan on doing something every year to mark the day of his passing. Simply celebrating his birthday may be enough. As Dean said in the earlier post, we have an amazing amount of animals, and more keep finding their way to us. I may ask for further help from some of you to get the yellow ribbon and tags put on all of the animals. It’s a much bigger undertaking than I had originally planned!
The girls are doing so beautifully, they are the loves of my life. Madie absolutely loves Kindergarten and is also looking forward to summer break. She is very proud of the fact that she can read now, and practices constantly. Lily is my ever-smiling bundle of pure joy. I believe that she has come to us to help us all heal.
Well, that’s all for today. We’ll be starting up the garden project again and have lots of great ideas, so keep checking back.
Thank you all for your support and prayers. We really do feel blessed by them.
Melinda
I hope that Lily’s first Easter was a day full of smiles. My dear Melinda, please if you ever just need a moment to show your pain and lay it all out, please let me know. You can come to my house or I can come to yours, or we can meet some where in the middle. Swallowing the pain and denying it for too long will just cause for an unexpected explosion. I know this for fact, but that is another story. Sometimes a good cry is what it takes to feel better, even if you feel that once you start you may never stop. You have a good set of friends and family to make sure you don’t dive to deep into sorrow. I love you with all my heart, and although I don’t know your healing journey’s path, I am hear to help you make the long winding trek.
Hugs
Shan
I agree with Shan. If you need to let it all out, to share the pain, or to talk about Ben and how much you miss him, your friends are only a phone call or short drive away. If you need time to yourself, and want someone to watch the girls, we can do that for you too. Whatever you need, just let us know, and we’ll be there to support you.
I second the two previous comments if there is ever a time that you guys need some greiving time just the two of you, please call I would love to watch the girls for you. Bethany would love to play with them.
God Bless
Tina Steen
Melinda,
I’m glad to hear you are finding joy these days. Each day brings so many new challenges. I hope you will be able to make the conference this year. I look forward to seeing both of you.
Carla
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