Valentine’s Day
Happy Valentines Day!!!
I know it was yesterday, but I had a rough time and couldn’t find the energy to post. Boy did that catch me off guard! I never thought of Valentine’s Day as a day that would be so hard for me to get through. I knew those days like Christmas, Easter, his birthday, these would be difficult days, and so I could plan for them and be ready. I MISSED HIM SOOOOOO MUCH YESTERDAY!!!!!! All I could think about was what a great day Valentine’s Day is. To show those important people in your life how much you love them, only he wasn’t there to share it with us. He missed all of it. The party at school, the special dinner we had at home, the special little cards and gifts that we shared. Many people will say that he was there in spirit and I understand that line of thinking, but it wasn’t enough for me. I WANT HIM WITH ME PHYSICALLY! I want to throw my arms around him and plant a big kiss on his cheek. I want to hold him down and give him a big belly blow while he laughs hysterically and begs me to stop. Why I must miss out on these things with him is a question I will never stop asking, even if there is no answer.
Today is Madie and Dean’s birthday. Madie is officially 6yrs old. For her birthday she has requested a trip to Build-a-Bear Workshop, one of her most favorite places. I’ve lost count of how many animals she has from there. It doesn’t help that I also love going there. For dinner she has requested baked spaghetti, raw broccoli to dip in ranch dressing, and chocolate milk. She is like Ben in that respect, loves broccoli and chocolate. I think Dean enjoys celebrating Madie’s birthday more than his own so he has no specific requests. I got him a computer game that was recommended to us by a friend, but I did the smart thing and bought two copies. That way we can play together and I don’t have to be mad at him for being on the computer all the time.:)
Well, Lily is waking up, so I guess that’s all for now. I’ll post again soon
Take care everyone
Melinda
