Enjoying the Archives
I’ve spent the last two evenings reading through the archives of our blog. I’ve done it once before and am always amazed to dig back through our experiences. I have no memory of writing most of it. Others make me laugh at my ongoing ice-cream addiction. I spent so many nights pouring my soul into this blog to avoid falling apart while the kids were awake. Every word is a treasure that takes me back to a time when I was focused on my family and nothing else.
I also read back over my writings and am envious of the strength that I had. I feel like I’ve been drifting for the last few months. Fearful that I would breakdown if anyone would really look into my eyes. Slinking from one holiday to the next; never looking up; never looking ahead.
The last few weeks have been much better. I’ve found a little of my old self-confidence and am slowly rejoining the world of the vertebrates.
Fueled along by each pint of Ben & Jerry’s.
Much love to you all. You all are never far from my thoughts.
It was great to see you Friday, and you don’t always have to have strength. As much as it may irritate you sometimes breaking down amongst friends is the best medicine you can have. Remember that your friends and family are here whenever you need.
Love and hugs!!!!
Shan, Abe and Quinn
It’s good to write, I like the look of your text and conversation!