Hi everyone!
Sorry about the absence of updates. It’s difficult to explain why, although, Dean did a good job in his latest post. This journey is such a personal one. Yet, I so miss reading all of the comments, they really do make me feel better.
Madie is doing really well. She is very excited for kindergarten this fall and asks me on a weekly basis how much longer this “school break” is going to last. She also speaks of Ben often and misses him more than she will admit.
I am doing ok. Every day is a struggle to get through without Ben. Having Madie helps me cope and baby pineapple is now constantly making her presence felt as well. As wonderful as they both are, there is still a giant hole in my life and in my heart where Ben is supposed to be. This loss has sent me on a lifetime journey of spiritual questioning and discovery. I don’t know where I’ll end up; I only hope that it involves the belief that I will see my son again someday.
I hope everyone had a good 4th of July holiday yesterday. Madie has been feeling somewhat under the weather, so we kept things low key and had some of our neighbors over for food and fireworks. All the kids had a blast, and the street in now littered with blackened debris.
Well, that’s it for now. Please check back soon for future updates on the “Secret Garden” and the Frederick/Firestone “Relay for Life” event coming this August.
Melinda
