Searching For Normal
The last two weeks have come and gone in a blur. I’m not sure if it feels like Ben left us yesterday or years ago. It doesn’t feel right either way.
I’ve found myself falling back into old habits of staying up late and sleeping in. That’s the way life used to be before kids – back in the roaring twenties. Carefree days spent sponsoring the Ben & Jerry’s diet (a pint in the afternoon followed by a sensible pint in the evening) and Magic cards. I keep saying that I’m going to start listening to my doctor and wakeup early to exercise. Then the late night glow of the monitor drags me back into its clutches.
I’m hoping that Madie’s school schedule will force me back into some routine again. I’ve got plans to do a bit of work on the garden this week, but nothing that requires any imagination at this point.
