Just Being Dad
I spent Monday feeling totally helpless. I’ve known that Ben’s prognosis wasn’t good from the start of this, but you can’t prepare yourself for the discussion where the doctors say that you’ve done everything that can be done and the outcome is still the same. I’ve focused so much energy into fighting Ben’s cancer and losing just plain sucks.
Tuesday was much better. Our meeting with Dr. Foreman and our psychologist Dr. Crampton brought some focus for me. The fight isn’t over, it’s just changed. I’m no longer fighting Ben’s cancer – I’m fighting to keep Ben comfortable, secure and feeling as loved as he is. Our meeting reminded me that that’s what I’ve always done for him – from his first cries to today.
Preparing yourself to lose a child is impossible, but just being Dad is easy.
